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The amount of anxiety inside my mind and body feels like it’s oozing out bit by bit. I can’t seem to put my finger on exactly what is bothering me but I can take a guess it has something to do with my relationship, as that’s the only reason I get really anxious like this. Read more of this post


Silver Lining Kind of Girl

I sat back this morning and looked at all my accomplishments in the 25 years I have been on this earth to realize I’m a beautiful person, inside and out. Don’t give me wrong I’m not being conceited; I realize there are people in the world have done much better than myself with a lot less to work with. But, I feel like I’ve worked my ass off and have done pretty damn good for myself and my future, whatever it may bring.

If more people in the world realize how far they’ve come I think this world would be a brighter, happier place. When my friends or family think down or poorly on themselves I always try to point out all the amazing things they have done, not everything they have not. Sometimes it is just up to the person to realize though.

It’s like being told advice as a child and not following said advice until you make your own mistakes and learn from them. Then you think back on it and decide you should of listened to so-and-so from the beginning, but it’s that moment of fucking up and fixing it that makes you really grow as a person. It builds character, or so they say.

I have a pretty complex character.


I have recently closed a few chapters in my very large novel called “Life.” The chapters entitled “Single” and “Give your father another chance” are officially done and over with.

On April 19, 2014, I married the man of my dreams, who puts up with my bitching, whose weirdness is equivalent only to my own, and who still refuses to clean out the cat boxes.

The wedding was amazing and I couldn’t have asked for a better one. All the important people were there, which concluded the following chapter about my father on the same day. I will post some pictures later my amazing photographer, Jason Nix, is sending them on a disk which should be arriving today.

We are also moving, again, hopefully for the last time into my moms house. She is vacating to live with her hunky Navy engineer boyfriend who I hope does not cheat on her, treat her like shit, or ruin her life like the previous douche bag, who recently got ran over by a truck and his new girlfriend is pregnant (KARMA).

I’m still a little bitter, if you can’t tell.


Even with all the bad shit I still love my life.