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Happy Independence Day



Of situations worried over are actually worth it. Everything’s fine for today.

Except the weather. Florida is number one in moody weather. The other day I was concerned I couldn’t go running because on my lunch break an ominous black cloud hovered over my house. Rain occurred and then a few hours later I was running in sunny, hot, humid weather at 6 pm.

Now, about 30 minutes before going to work at the new satellite office it is pouring down rain. My scrubs are going to get wet and I may very well catch a cold. Thanks florida.

Side note on me running: I do. If you told me a year or so ago I would be running twice, soon to be three times, a week I would look at you like you were bat shit and bid you a good day. I was never much of a runner and on the few occasions I did in my high school/ college days I thought I was dying. I still think I am, but I enjoy dying a little more than I thought I would.

I even like dying so much I am torturing myself by training for a half marathon in October (yikes). Wish me luck.

It won’t be easy, but it will be worth it.
Plus I’ll get an awesome bumper sticker.

Worth it.


The amount of anxiety inside my mind and body feels like it’s oozing out bit by bit. I can’t seem to put my finger on exactly what is bothering me but I can take a guess it has something to do with my relationship, as that’s the only reason I get really anxious like this. Read more of this post

Silver Lining Kind of Girl

I sat back this morning and looked at all my accomplishments in the 25 years I have been on this earth to realize I’m a beautiful person, inside and out. Don’t give me wrong I’m not being conceited; I realize there are people in the world have done much better than myself with a lot less to work with. But, I feel like I’ve worked my ass off and have done pretty damn good for myself and my future, whatever it may bring.

If more people in the world realize how far they’ve come I think this world would be a brighter, happier place. When my friends or family think down or poorly on themselves I always try to point out all the amazing things they have done, not everything they have not. Sometimes it is just up to the person to realize though.

It’s like being told advice as a child and not following said advice until you make your own mistakes and learn from them. Then you think back on it and decide you should of listened to so-and-so from the beginning, but it’s that moment of fucking up and fixing it that makes you really grow as a person. It builds character, or so they say.

I have a pretty complex character.


I have recently closed a few chapters in my very large novel called “Life.” The chapters entitled “Single” and “Give your father another chance” are officially done and over with.

On April 19, 2014, I married the man of my dreams, who puts up with my bitching, whose weirdness is equivalent only to my own, and who still refuses to clean out the cat boxes.

The wedding was amazing and I couldn’t have asked for a better one. All the important people were there, which concluded the following chapter about my father on the same day. I will post some pictures later my amazing photographer, Jason Nix, is sending them on a disk which should be arriving today.

We are also moving, again, hopefully for the last time into my moms house. She is vacating to live with her hunky Navy engineer boyfriend who I hope does not cheat on her, treat her like shit, or ruin her life like the previous douche bag, who recently got ran over by a truck and his new girlfriend is pregnant (KARMA).

I’m still a little bitter, if you can’t tell.


Even with all the bad shit I still love my life.

Eyes wide open

The pain and irritation you cause is weighing me down.
I would rather scoop my eye right out of its socket than deal with you for another minute.

You think you have the right to get in my business?
And when I try to get you out of it, you evade me.
You’re so stubborn like that.

Sometimes I’m so scare of getting rid of you.
I know it might hurt, because this happens to me a lot.
But it needs to happen.
You have to get out.

My eyes become red and I get so tired of fighting with you.
People notice too… I always keep a bottle of visine in my purse just in case you effect me.
Because you always do at the worst times.
And you literally bring tears to my eye sometimes.
You’re that bad.

Sometimes I can’t even see you, but I know you’re there…

Why wont you get out of my eye, you stupid eyelash?!

Best Friends

A best friend is someone that you can always count on.

They could be a million miles away,
For a million years,
And when they come back it’s like that distance and time never even happened,
Like you’ve been together the whole time.

You can still fight,
still bitch,
still drive each other absolutely mad,But you will always be there for each other when you need it the most.

When you make stupid decisions,
If they aren’t making them with you,
They are the one telling it to you straight.
No beating around the bush,
‘You’re a fucking idiot.’
And they will be right there when you keep doing stupid shit to say:
‘I told you so.’

Then help you pick up the pieces.

They’re the shoulder you cry on.
The ones that make you smile.
The ones you make the best memories with.
The ones that change your life forever.

They’re your family.
And no one
~makes fun of
~hates on
~fights with
your family
Except for you.

If you are reading this you are probably thinking of your best friend,
And if you don’t have a best friend you surely need one.


Happy to announce two months into my resolution and I am getting better about my bitching! I have a tangent every once in a while but I feel a lot happier when I don’t let things get to me so much.

Also in 1 month and 19 days I’m getting married! Holy crap! Planning a wedding is so stressful, hard and expensive! And we aren’t even spending nearly as much as a lot of people I know did. Can’t wait for the day to be over so I can stop planning haha.

I’m also back to playing with makeup a lot more which makes me happy. Haven’t really had the opportunity with the business lately but here are some recent looks.











I know a few of these have been posted on here before but if you want tutorials on any of them let me know I’d love to make some❤️

I think the millions of makeup pictures on this post are enough to keep you entertained for now~ next up cats!

And dont forget to check out my recent posts on juicing and a few reviews on some products I have been using lately.

~stay beautiful to yourself because your opinion is the only one that matters most~

Be a better you

So, I recently dove into the world of “juicing” (fruits and veggies not steroids) and although I blame the wedding and not wanting to gain weight, it’s also because I just want to be a better, healthier me. I have so many people give me crap for trying to be healthy because apparently I’m “skinny enough.” Those of us skinny bitches know that its not always about being skinny; its about feeling good about yourself and taking care of your body. You only have one!

As for this post, I just wanted to share some of the recipes I have made and how I make juicing easy and quick!

Warning: Always wash your fruit before you juice! Especially in America, land of pesticides. If you want to start juicing, you should eat solid foods as well unless you’re doing a detox for a week. Its very unhealthy to drink nothing but liquids, though it is more nutritious to make it yourself instead of store buying juice.

What I do is make two types of juice in the morning. I eat breakfast (with juice), lunch, and small dinner. I drink my second juice between breakfast and dinner just whenever I get the urge to eat something (I’m a bored eater so juicing is AWESOME.)

I use a nutribullet, nut milk bags, and whatever is in these recipes.

Measurements are based on the large nutribullet container, which I always fill up passed the max fill line (teehee). And regular water instead of coconut water is fine I just like coconut water because it is more hydrating. If on a budget that week Ill use regular water, too. Also, I LOVE ginger root so you don’t have to use nearly as much as I do unless you love it too.


1/2 container kale
1 Bartlett pear
2 tbsp on lemon juice
Fill with coconut water to ‘max fill’ line
1/2 container kale
8-10 blackberries
4-6 strawberries
1/2 banana
Fill with coconut water to ‘max fill’ line
1/3 container spinach
6-8 strawberries (depending on size)
The rest of container pineapple
Cocoa powder
Fill with coconut water to ‘max fill’ line
1/3 container watercrest
1 granny smith apple
1/2 orange
1″ ginger root
Fill with coconut water to ‘max fill’ line
1/2 container Watermelon
1 Cucumber
Fill with coconut water to ‘max fill’ line
^ not my favorite but I really like strong flavors
1/3 container carrots
1 banana
1 gala apple
2tbsp lemon juice
Fill with coconut water to ‘max fill’ line
1/2 container carrots
5-6 strawberries
1 banana
Fill with coconut water to ‘max fill’ line
1/2 container carrots
4-6 peach slices
1″ ginger
2 tbsp lemon
Fill with coconut water to ‘max fill’ line
1 granny smith apple
1/2 orange
1/2 banana
1/3 cucumber
2 tbsp lemon juice
1 tbsp green tea powder (yum)
Fill with coconut water to ‘max fill’ line
1/2 container carrot
1 orange
1/3 cucumber
2 tbsp lemon juice
Fill with coconut water to ‘max fill’ line
1 tomato
6-8 strawberries
1/2 banana
Fill with coconut water to ‘max fill’ line

Don’t forget when juicing you want to drink it within 24 hrs of making it! Otherwise nutritional value decreases and it starts to go bad. If juicing for a later period find a container that is well sealed and try to get your juice all the way to the top to keep oxygen from getting to it and making it go bad faster.

Happy juicing everyone~

Glam reviews

Long time no see! Just a few reviews on some products I’ve been using that I think are really awesome or at least worth trying!

First my recent love from Malin+Goetz. This company is pretty pricey but I defintely recommend these products!


This lip balm is FANTASTIC. I have a problem with my lips when I use glosses or even normal lipsticks where they start to peel because they are too moist. But if I don’t put anything on them they are instantly chapped! Oh, what’s a girl to do?

Buy this of course. Although it is $12 my little tube has lasted me over a month and still going strong! Which is impressive since I use it every day. It only takes the smallest dab to cover your lips and its silky smooth going on. I use it probably 2-4 times a day depending on if I am working hard or hardly working. And no issues with peeling lips!


Then there is this beauty! Troubled skin and large pores are my worst enemy but this mask is turning my enemy into a faint glimmer of the past. Use it as directed on the bottle (I normally use two pumps three-four times a week). It literally feels like dirt and grime are coming out of your skin as it dissolves on your face. Creepy but awesome. I got it free in my popsugar box last month however I will definitely be forking out the $40 to buy another bottle when the sad day comes that I run out.

On a side note on larger to smaller pores: in addition to this I recently starting using apple vinegar with mint leave extract on my face every night after washing all my makeup off with normal cleaner (or after my detox mask). No significant difference yet but I have only done it twice! Anyone else try this method?

Second batch of products I want to tell you about come from my long time favorite Tarte Cosmetics<3 my heart will forever be with these guys and these products in my makeup bags.


Holy crap this shadow stick! Im a dry shadow kind of gal but apparently I had no idea what I have been missing! I bought a gift set of these, that is unfortunately not on their website anymore, and when I got them I tested one of the back of my hand. I literally for 24 hours kept trying to rub it off my hand with no success until I took a shower that night (I was being a bum at home so no hand washing that day). Talk about shock! When you first apply them they are easy to smudge and blend as needed but once they have set they last forever! So if you have the eyelids-that-eat-makeup problem check these out! They are also great for eyeliner and as a base for dry eyeshadow.


And last but no least this lip stick/gloss/ Idontevenknow. I was slightly disappointed when receiving this because assuming from the title of it, I thought I was getting a long lasting lip stick. Lies, Tarte, all lies! Though after I got over the deception I became really fond of this tinty glossy stick. There is an awkward layer that makes it more of a lip tint than a lip stick when you use it the first few times, but once you get through that I can see where they get the lipstick title from. As far as long lasting I have to put this on more than the lip balm from malin+goetz as seen above. But its not too shabby for a Tarte sale item. Also, no lip peeling problems so thats a plus!

Caution: dont put it in your pocket it will melt. It will form back to a solid stick once its been out of your pocket for a bit, but if you use it immediately results can be disastrous and slightly drag queen like.

For these products and more please visit the links below! Hope these reviews were helpful 🙂


Tarte Cosemtics

A little Irish never killed any body

Unfortunately Im a lot Irish.

I know Im about 16 days late, but better late than never for my new years resolution. I generally don’t make one for the sheer fact that after two weeks everyone, including myself, forgets about it and continues with their daily lives. I actually want to try and stick it out though:

Bitch less.

Thats my resolution. I get so hot headed over the littlest things and open my mouth to vent to anyone around me.

I blame the leprechaun on my shoulder.

So, I am kicking him off his perch in hopes that I can breath a little easier and stop complaining so much. Because every moment spent complaining is wasted on enjoying life.

Wish me luck.